Saturday, August 21, 2010

It's My Life

I've recently decided to give up my music lessons. It's not that I hate them, I'm just more interested in other things now, like writing and painting. Sometimes in order to live to the fullest, you have to give up things that have been apart of you for years. Right? You never know if it's the right thing to do until you actually do it and risk it all. So that's what I'm gonna do. I'm quiting.
What boils my blood is the fact that my family says I shouldn't, and I should keep taking lessons, as always, as usual. But here's the thing: I don't want to keep taking lessons that I dread every week, or perform twice a year. I'm not like the other girls there who wear wooden clogs and long braids (not trying to steryotype). I'm in there with my banged-up sneakers and skinny jeans, feeling like a sore thumb among all of the other girls who give me dirty looks when they pass. So why not try something else? Why is such a problem to everyone else that I'm trying to be happy and just me?
Everyone else thinks they can tell me what to do, but again, it's my life, always has been. It's not for everyone else to yank around and fit into their lives. My mom's okay with it, but everyone else just doesn't get it.
I'm going to do what's best for me, not for them.


  1. You go, girl! Do what you want and what feels right! I hope it all works out! (: X's and O's, Hannah. ♥

  2. Yes, you're definitely right. It's your life, not theirs.

  3. performing is always the most awkward thing ever. you made a good choice :)

  4. Good for you Jade, that was a really brave thing to do. This is your life and you should live it up the way YOU want to live it up, I mean you don't want to look back when your older and think about the life you could have had if you did this or if you did that. Just do what you love (and pardon my french) f**k the rest. Lots of endless and supportive love! <3

  5. xoxo, Hannah- thanks, that means a lot to me

    RANdOM RAWR- you're right. it IS my life

    tybalt.- it's not so much awkward as it is boring to me, you know?

    Talia- i agree. i will :)

  6. Just be sure that you are quitting for the right reasons; not just because you stick out. But that's fine if you would do other things!
    Exacly; I hate it when people try to say what I LIKE and what I FEEL! You know?
    Have a good week.

  7. oh, i know what you mean. i admire your courage to just live out your life instead of letting others make decisions for you. i'm in the same boat in my life right now. people telling me what i should or shouldn't do. so frustrating. xx

  8. what instrument did you play?

    oh how sometimes i WISH i could quite lessons because i hate practicing (i play the viola and have been since they start you on it in 4th grade). But i honestly like playing, its just practicing i HATE and besides, im in my state's Youth Symphony Orchestra and a pretty high level so i dont think my parents would be into me quitting. ANd oh, besides, i like playing with a full, advanced orchestra

  9. quit! No point wasting precious time on something you despise.

    I spent years doing french horn lessons for school and was so much happier when I finished it.

    After a break for a few years I've now taken back up piano. So perhaps give it a break and try some other musical pursuit?